Be Still and Know that I am God
“Be still and know that I am God.” Hello! My name is Danielle Eggers and I am currently serving as the Collegians for Christ President. I am a senior at Appalachian State University double majoring in Elementary Education and Spanish. I grew up in a Christian home where the Bible was read daily and “Dad and Mom, are we going to church this morning?” was never a question on Sunday. If the church doors were open, we knew we were going. From a young age, I was taught that hell is a place that is real and that Jesus died on the cross for my sins. Despite the fact that I knew this, it was not enough to save me. I needed to be forgiven of my sins and believe on Jesus Christ. As an 11-year-old child, I asked the Lord to save me and He did. In John 5:24, the Bible says, “Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that heareth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life..” From that moment, I became a new creature in Christ and was given eternal life. I knew that I would never have to face hell and would go to Heaven when I died, but I didn’t know exactly what it meant to live my life for the Lord.
Growing up, I was taught right from wrong and things that I should and shouldn’t do. Through high school, I lived a “morally good” life, staying away from activities and friends that would have led me down a rough path. Despite this, I still did not have a strong relationship with the Lord. After applying to several different universities, I decided to stay close to home and attend App State. Even though I moved out of my parent’s house, I continued to stay faithful to my home church, but still did not really grow in my walk with the Lord. I have always been involved in many activities and at the time, did not find it important enough to work on that relationship. My sophomore year, I began to drift very far away from the Lord. I became less and less faithful to church, made friendships with the wrong crowd, and would go weeks without opening my Bible outside of church. On top of all of this, my boyfriend since high school and I had broken up and I was absolutely devastated. Instead of turning to Jesus, I distracted myself with anything I could to get my mind off of the heartbreak I felt. I had hit rock bottom. My life was the furthest from being pleasing to the Lord.
The summer before my junior year, I decided to study abroad in Spain. It was an amazing experience and I met many great friends. When I returned to the United States, my family had moved to a different church. This church, where I am currently a member, is a place where the Holy Spirit moves in a mighty way and people have a strong desire to serve and worship the Lord. I began to see what it meant to be around a body of believers that were on fire for God. The Lord began to convict my heart and show me that the life I was living was very far from His will. At this time, I had begun serving as the President for CFC and God showed me that I had a special standard to uphold. I was not only responsible for myself, but to those that were looking to me as an example. I needed to change.
I began trying to read my Bible every day, mediating on the things of God, and separating myself from those friends that had led me into temptation. I was lonely, because most of the friends I made in college were the ones I was trying to distance myself from. I found myself spending a lot of time alone in my room, even when my roommates were all hanging out together downstairs. Despite the fact that I felt extremely lonely, the Spirit of God wrapped His loving arms around me and let me know that I would never be alone. He kept reminding me of one specific verse, “Be still and know that I am God.” After thinking about this over and over, I realized that with my crazy schedule and very active life, I was not being still. I needed to get my spiritual life back on track and with all the activities I had going on, I was not able to give God the time that He deserves. January came and I realized that it was God’s will for me to take a semester off from school. I continued to serve as CFC president and worked my job, but not having school work to complete, allowed me to focus on things of God.
My pastor and his family have always been close family friends. His son, Tyler, and I dated in high school and we had always tried to make something work between us, but the connection was just never there. At the beginning of that semester, he and I began talking. God had made many significant changes in both of our hearts and had prepared our paths for each other. We began dating, are now engaged, and planning a wedding for October 2016. I can’t help but wonder if I had disobeyed God and continued with school that semester, if my relationship with Tyler would have happened the way that it did.
My life has been one of many ups and downs, but through it all, I have learned that if I love God, stay close to Him, and put Him first always, the outcome is much better. Throughout my college career, I have been very fortunate to have been a part of CFC and have amazing people like Kyle and Amanda be a part of my life. They have been there for me, prayed for me, tried to guide me, and watched me grow. They have shared their mistakes and given advice that would help me in my spiritual walk. I can only hope that one day I will be able to pour my heart and life into my future students and young adults the way that they have mine.